posts

i know most of my posts are probably about sadnes and being angry.
but thats not me

well mabye its a tiny part of me

but me well i am almost allways happy and feel like life is fullfilling and that im not missing much of the things i would love.
so when i write a post remeber that this emotion will only last about a day
then it will be gone and i will be happy again, and well that lasts for as long as i can hold on to it for and that can be ages :)




oh and here is another awesome quote from that http://www.loveyourflawz.com/ site
Beauty comes in all sizes not just size 5

welcome to my world its different but i think its more beautifull than the most beautifull thing in the world!

i finaly figured out who to explain parts of my mind,

well the song "were all i this together" by ben lee is a bit of what i think a lot and then the site i posted in the post before this also explains a lot of my mind.

i new i couldnt explain it but i hope these things do :)

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring!!

to be more wierd than i have ever seen is so much more beautifull (like you cant explain more) than a non-smiling, dull, unhappy, boring person. :)

the title is from a site: http://www.loveyourflawz.com
and i made the other one up :)

mylifeisavergae and books could never be more useful

i want to be in this picture

im sick of this,

why cant it be over,

and all go away,

i need to be strong and get through this but i dont know if i can make it

im so tired of being here and living

i cant even control my emotions

there all just a blur of sad and happy

you tell me off

i almost cry

you make me do stuff

i almost cry

we take about super powers

i am happy

you ignore me and i become invisible

i almost cry

i get home and relax

im happy

i have to do homework and study and im busy when i just want to relax

i almost cry

you push me around and hurt me

i cry

i hope i make it through

begging may not get you far but it never hurts to try

i dont know whats happened to you,

but now your acting like them,

i want you back

not the other two sides of you

i want to shout at you i want to scream

but i dont want to hurt you.

come back

the holy grail

if there is one song to cheer me up i times of need that is it.


it also has the best guitar solo ever!!!



:)

no not this song its to sad :(

i dont get angry much

i dont know why, i am just hard to get angry

i dont really care if you offend me or say whatever insult comes to your head first.

i cant hate people either

i end up feling sorry for them and just trying to help them so they dont push away people

i even if i hate them i cant be mean to them

if you get me angry i do things that make me feel bad, and that i didnt mean and say things i dont even understand.

I guess I dont even get myself

but one way to make me angry and make me want to rip your head off is to be mean to my friends, If you are mean to them and i dont even know you i just want to be mean to you.

one example is bella, everytime im on facebook and she is to i can hardly stop myself, i just want to sware at her till she crys, and if i see her i want to kick her in the gut then punch her in the face. anyone else who is like that to my friends i feel the same way for. I cant help it.

my enime, Bianca. well you see i dont hate her becuase of the things she did to me, i hate her for all the things she did to my friends.

so well i guess there you go people, u know the angry part of me. and just one more thing............................................if you even try and hurt my friends i will hunt you down and kill you in your sleep.

:) lol

i dont want to do it
i dont want t go back
it hasnt been long enough
why not only one day left
instead of two weeks
i cant take that long
im having enough trouble not screaming at every teacher "FUCK OFF"
so i cant take much more
it better go fast

sunny days are the days that make me smile and not stop smiling

i dont get sad much,

but i know that when i do

i dont want to talk

i dont want to move

and all i want is for it to be sunny

becuase when its sunny i seem to be able to forget anything sad very quickly

You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction.

i want to see you again,
i cant wait to see u again
i wish we can get together again

to beat the world agian
and be us again

thats what she said

i dont have much really to say latly becuase life has been pretty normal............aka nothing interesting happening.
but last night was awesome
that cheered me up for the rest of the week

we went down that slide about 100 times singing and yelling as we went down
we played marco polo and jumped in the pool with all our clothes
it was so much fun
and i want that to happen every monday

whiskers that make you smile

we laughed we played we drew whiskers on our faces but i still wish it was longer i wish it could happen again and i wish it could happen everyday

what am i

i have whisker on but im not a cat
i am having idian for dinner but im not idian
i know sign language but im not deaf
i want to fly but im no bird
i love my friends and are no way a person
i tease my brother even though he will hurt me
i have a watch and i allways want to know the time
and i love swimming becuase it feels like flying

What am I




I am











me

whatever you say pirates,ghosts and ninjas still beat the world

you stare and jude

you tell us off cause you want it done to you

you talk behind our backs

you hate us

but we dont care

becuase we sing

becuase we draw on our faces

becuase when everyone else is making something normal we make a hippy van with a pirate, ghost and ninja in the window

we dont care about how you laugh at us

we just smile and let it go

becuase we know and you know even though you will never admit it

you so want to be us!!!

lets get some new shoes

do you ever feel really worn out like an old pair of shoes

like you have been steeped on and molded for everyone else's liking

i do

it sucks

i feel like i have to do what everyone else wants me to do

but i dont want to do that

i want to wear whiskers without people judging me

i want to be me and not be told of for it

I want to just sit were i want

(i know ur hiding dead bodies down there)

i dont see the difference between pen on your face and a cake face

either way you still look stupid

right now i just feel like and old warn out shoe that hasent got a long time left to live.

people are stranger than i thought

do you ever wounder if your being talked about right now behind your back
and do you ever wounder if it is your friends that are talking about you
I say if the mean what they say they dont like you
If they just want to get something out and have been angry
well i dont say they mean it
do you ever feel like if your not talked about your not noticed
well to them i say you are noticed by the people that love you

my mind

i hate my mind i hate it
its not like i dont try and remeber things
i just cant
memories are gone and everything is gone then i only rember pictures and i dont even know if i had a dream about it or it actully happened.
life can be confusing
you scream at me saying "bull shit, you dont forget"
yeah i do i do forget
so leave me alone for a bit so i can remeber but still nothing i juct cant remeber

invisible

why am i here if your going to ignore me
why do you
you walk past me no hi or bye just there then gone again
you were away for a week and i know you have this problem happening
but still what about us
why do you have to ignore us even though we have nothin to do with the problem
i just dont get it

life goes slow and yet fast as well

she yells at you for not doing something she wanted you to do but she never told you she wanted you to do it.
you want to leave becuase you put up with it for weeks
but i dont want you to leave
i want you to be patient for another month but i dont know if you can handle that long.
she yells and yells at you and you sometimes yell back although you dont want to.
you know she doesnt deserve it but neither do you
i no she is stressed and wants her to shut up but so do you
i want to help to but she is not telling anyone what she needs help with

i wish time went quicker