rain

today something is off

but i have no idea what

mabye its becuase its raining and that makes me feel sad but i really dont think so becuase on most rainy days i dont feel like i do today.

whats wrong with me???

4 am

after the last post i cant really write this but it was to much fun you cant not wright it.

we stayed up late,

we had midnight ice cream,

we talked about everything lol

and well we just plainly had fun

:D

im sorry

ok so i wrote a post,
im sorry
i said that,
but i have a few questions for you?

why were you angry in the first place???
how did i insult you???
did you know that id didnt mean it???
why couldnt you have told me about this ???

if i had known????
but i guess thats the thing that gets you into the fight,
if you had known, if you had told me
and i dont want to get into another fight.
so ill try to say it again..........im sorry
i didnt know i was insulting you, i didnt mean it?
i was trying to tell you what i was feeling so we could sort this out.

oh and i wrote these things in a post becuase i know if i said this to your face i would have cryed for, well i have no idea how long. same for this by the way. oh and becuse this way i can say it all in one big post and know one can interrupt me till im finished so you can see my piont before i get so sad or angry i have no idea what im saying, then i really offened you.

i know it hard to be happy 24/7, i wasnt saying you had to be.
i didnt say you said you promised to talk you didnt but i think you needed to becuase
well when i say change i mean that you have become angry or sad all the time.
and i meant change becuase i dont think i had ever seen this kind of angry
and you didnt seem angry
look ok im sorry and im sorry if this offends you again im just trying to make sense of all of this and try and figure out what i want to say at the same time.

i never want to ever really hurt you and thats why whenever i acidently hit you hard i go in a coner and try to not think about it becuase if i do i will end up crying in front of everyone.

p.s know one can ever no someone to their full extient becuase some thing you just cant explain..........................like i guess this post.



i love you and i never want to lose you so when i say im sorry i meant it

your both sensitive

you need to talk

not just expect one of the other to start it then both not

and not at each others party

at laurens you can ruin that one :)

but really

you guys are best friends

why the sudden hate

you both think that when one of you does something its something else

but it not

i know you both so well

so both of you just snap out of it

you love each other

and i dont want you guys not being friends for the holidays

so just let me explain

you guys need to be more calm towards each other

and if this offends one of you

im sorry

and i mean it

hey look what an apoligie has done

by the way, one of you has changed but little did you now she changed back

and the other one, she doesnt hate you, she just wants you back and you have come back

oh and im sorry if this is mean, i just want you guys to be friends again.

i wanna beat the world again!!!!!!

totaly lies, and criket person, come on

ive been thinking and well
i will not miss our class
i will miss my friends
and the people that have met the real me (i know its a bit crazy but it sure as hell is me)
and i will miss being in year 8
and in the same class

posts

i know most of my posts are probably about sadnes and being angry.
but thats not me

well mabye its a tiny part of me

but me well i am almost allways happy and feel like life is fullfilling and that im not missing much of the things i would love.
so when i write a post remeber that this emotion will only last about a day
then it will be gone and i will be happy again, and well that lasts for as long as i can hold on to it for and that can be ages :)




oh and here is another awesome quote from that http://www.loveyourflawz.com/ site
Beauty comes in all sizes not just size 5

welcome to my world its different but i think its more beautifull than the most beautifull thing in the world!

i finaly figured out who to explain parts of my mind,

well the song "were all i this together" by ben lee is a bit of what i think a lot and then the site i posted in the post before this also explains a lot of my mind.

i new i couldnt explain it but i hope these things do :)

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring!!

to be more wierd than i have ever seen is so much more beautifull (like you cant explain more) than a non-smiling, dull, unhappy, boring person. :)

the title is from a site: http://www.loveyourflawz.com
and i made the other one up :)

mylifeisavergae and books could never be more useful

i want to be in this picture

im sick of this,

why cant it be over,

and all go away,

i need to be strong and get through this but i dont know if i can make it

im so tired of being here and living

i cant even control my emotions

there all just a blur of sad and happy

you tell me off

i almost cry

you make me do stuff

i almost cry

we take about super powers

i am happy

you ignore me and i become invisible

i almost cry

i get home and relax

im happy

i have to do homework and study and im busy when i just want to relax

i almost cry

you push me around and hurt me

i cry

i hope i make it through

begging may not get you far but it never hurts to try

i dont know whats happened to you,

but now your acting like them,

i want you back

not the other two sides of you

i want to shout at you i want to scream

but i dont want to hurt you.

come back

the holy grail

if there is one song to cheer me up i times of need that is it.


it also has the best guitar solo ever!!!



:)

no not this song its to sad :(

i dont get angry much

i dont know why, i am just hard to get angry

i dont really care if you offend me or say whatever insult comes to your head first.

i cant hate people either

i end up feling sorry for them and just trying to help them so they dont push away people

i even if i hate them i cant be mean to them

if you get me angry i do things that make me feel bad, and that i didnt mean and say things i dont even understand.

I guess I dont even get myself

but one way to make me angry and make me want to rip your head off is to be mean to my friends, If you are mean to them and i dont even know you i just want to be mean to you.

one example is bella, everytime im on facebook and she is to i can hardly stop myself, i just want to sware at her till she crys, and if i see her i want to kick her in the gut then punch her in the face. anyone else who is like that to my friends i feel the same way for. I cant help it.

my enime, Bianca. well you see i dont hate her becuase of the things she did to me, i hate her for all the things she did to my friends.

so well i guess there you go people, u know the angry part of me. and just one more thing............................................if you even try and hurt my friends i will hunt you down and kill you in your sleep.

:) lol

i dont want to do it
i dont want t go back
it hasnt been long enough
why not only one day left
instead of two weeks
i cant take that long
im having enough trouble not screaming at every teacher "FUCK OFF"
so i cant take much more
it better go fast

sunny days are the days that make me smile and not stop smiling

i dont get sad much,

but i know that when i do

i dont want to talk

i dont want to move

and all i want is for it to be sunny

becuase when its sunny i seem to be able to forget anything sad very quickly

You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction.

i want to see you again,
i cant wait to see u again
i wish we can get together again

to beat the world agian
and be us again

thats what she said

i dont have much really to say latly becuase life has been pretty normal............aka nothing interesting happening.
but last night was awesome
that cheered me up for the rest of the week

we went down that slide about 100 times singing and yelling as we went down
we played marco polo and jumped in the pool with all our clothes
it was so much fun
and i want that to happen every monday

whiskers that make you smile

we laughed we played we drew whiskers on our faces but i still wish it was longer i wish it could happen again and i wish it could happen everyday

what am i

i have whisker on but im not a cat
i am having idian for dinner but im not idian
i know sign language but im not deaf
i want to fly but im no bird
i love my friends and are no way a person
i tease my brother even though he will hurt me
i have a watch and i allways want to know the time
and i love swimming becuase it feels like flying

What am I




I am











me

whatever you say pirates,ghosts and ninjas still beat the world

you stare and jude

you tell us off cause you want it done to you

you talk behind our backs

you hate us

but we dont care

becuase we sing

becuase we draw on our faces

becuase when everyone else is making something normal we make a hippy van with a pirate, ghost and ninja in the window

we dont care about how you laugh at us

we just smile and let it go

becuase we know and you know even though you will never admit it

you so want to be us!!!

lets get some new shoes

do you ever feel really worn out like an old pair of shoes

like you have been steeped on and molded for everyone else's liking

i do

it sucks

i feel like i have to do what everyone else wants me to do

but i dont want to do that

i want to wear whiskers without people judging me

i want to be me and not be told of for it

I want to just sit were i want

(i know ur hiding dead bodies down there)

i dont see the difference between pen on your face and a cake face

either way you still look stupid

right now i just feel like and old warn out shoe that hasent got a long time left to live.

people are stranger than i thought

do you ever wounder if your being talked about right now behind your back
and do you ever wounder if it is your friends that are talking about you
I say if the mean what they say they dont like you
If they just want to get something out and have been angry
well i dont say they mean it
do you ever feel like if your not talked about your not noticed
well to them i say you are noticed by the people that love you

my mind

i hate my mind i hate it
its not like i dont try and remeber things
i just cant
memories are gone and everything is gone then i only rember pictures and i dont even know if i had a dream about it or it actully happened.
life can be confusing
you scream at me saying "bull shit, you dont forget"
yeah i do i do forget
so leave me alone for a bit so i can remeber but still nothing i juct cant remeber

invisible

why am i here if your going to ignore me
why do you
you walk past me no hi or bye just there then gone again
you were away for a week and i know you have this problem happening
but still what about us
why do you have to ignore us even though we have nothin to do with the problem
i just dont get it

life goes slow and yet fast as well

she yells at you for not doing something she wanted you to do but she never told you she wanted you to do it.
you want to leave becuase you put up with it for weeks
but i dont want you to leave
i want you to be patient for another month but i dont know if you can handle that long.
she yells and yells at you and you sometimes yell back although you dont want to.
you know she doesnt deserve it but neither do you
i no she is stressed and wants her to shut up but so do you
i want to help to but she is not telling anyone what she needs help with

i wish time went quicker

so u say u picked the right one

i guess people say they understand me but i guess they only now part of me.
I dont try and hide the other part it just hardly ever comes
it allways comes out when im writting posts.
u see everything at once goes through my head when im writing a post and i can do like 18 thing at once.
I am like a different person when im happy, sad, mean or just wierd and everytime im like that i think a different way

so i guess no one can ever know me well

cant take it

i cant take u being sad,

i dont mean to be rough and mean i just cant take it

ur allways so happy and full of joy but now ur sad and i know u havnt actully smiled a proper smile for ages.

i dont mean to rush u and i no there is a choice i get it, i get it all

i want u to eat more

not get skinnner (i thought we had that deal for 5 kilos lol)

i love u and i dont want the real u to go away becuase right now thats the only thing thats keeping me going.

i thought u were the flower in the darkness but now u need someone to be theflower in the darkness to keep u going : )

and im sorry if this puts pressure on you i just had to get it out.

split

so we are even more split up now.
all the non popular people in the last terms and all the popular people in the first terms.
They said it is a chance to be friends with everyone and not just stay in our little groups.
what hypocrites!

friends and ex's dont mix well

why do you still like me.
why do you have to like me.
why cant you like someone else.
and i dont want you hurting yourself becuse of me.
cant we just be friends without one of us liking another.
why are we so complicated.
I just wanted us to be friends again.
it sort of worked.
but also didnt work.
i dont want this to be true.
i dont need this.
well I guess the chliche is true.....................ex's cant be friends but that doesnt mean i wont stop trying to be.

i was just thinking about stuff and I saw this photo and now i know how to explain me

brothers

why do you have to be bigger, better at everything and good at eveything

why cant you leave me alone to listen to music and relax

why do you have to push me so far i start crying huh why

why oh why..................wait becuase ur my borother and a totaly meany thats why

admitting

i know lately i have sort of been writing a bit of nonsense and stuff but i love writting nonsense it gives you something to do.

As you know i sit on the computer everyday for about i dunno 6 hours. and yes that is a lot but i have a lot to do.........................................actully i dont

i used to do it becuse it would tkae me away, and it did.

but now i think its becuase it feels like home.

and you know how i have been happy? well thas becuase i go on the computer and listen to music and feel more at home than i feel anywere else.

i feel really dorky saying this but when my parents said i couldnt have the internet till 6 at night on school night...........................well i felt really sad becuase this is my home and this is what i do and i dont care if you think it is sad you will just have to live with it becuase this is my place in the world and i love it here : )

and right now this feels like the only light place in a world of darkness so its awesome

guess my friends guess away

would you believe your.................................the first person to email me the answer to the end of that sentence i will buy a chocolate for :)

sorry im happy and bored :)

why are people curious
i don't get it i mean i am but why am i
hahaha i just got the irony :)

cant wait

soon something will happen

we will have fun

we will watch, laugh, sing, get free hugs from strangers and not have a care in the world.

now that is the true meaning of life

family

it can be amazing

we went to the park and got along so well, we played frisbe and you only takled me for fun.

and you guys wernt yelling at us to do something it was fun.

we would all laugh and sing loudly.

we would run around and tease each other without meaning it for once.

and then it all came crashing down as we went back home.

i fought with you.

you punched me.

i ran away.

but even when all this happens everyday i will have that memory and be happy again.

and when im crying and sad becuase you got angry i will cry myslef to sleep and dream of that happening again.

im sick of life right now.

sick of homework and school and just want to be with a ghost and a ninja.

if only my family could go to that magic park everyday all together and all run out our fears and worrys just have at least 10 minuites of fun.

i now hate urban dictionary

today the wierdest thing happend, i saw a MLIA about someone typing in “something productive” on the urban dictionary after it said “What You Arn't Doing Right Now, If Your Looking Up Something Productive On some online dictionary.” I searched “you suck” and it came up with “you suck a term used when there is lack of better comebacks.” I then searched “that’s a good comeback” and it came up with “that’s not what your mum said last night” and “you’re not tough”. Fine you win urban dictionary.

this actully happened to me and it sucked :)

i feel less smart

made me laugh

A celebrity is a person who works hard all his life to become well known, then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized.

something about things (click on the pic and get the full picture)

yesterday my friend gave me a song, i dont know what it is about the song but it is just somehow well i cnt explain it but i am so puting it on this blog so listen to it at the bottom. :)

I just realised that it is a bit like this pebble i ahve by my bed, i dont know were it came from and i dont know why but everytime i hold it I think of the white sand beach holidays ive had and all the others.

so now if im sad or cant get to sleep i hold that pebble and fall asleep with the pebble in my hand and the awesome holidays ive had in my head.

and i really think that both these things are awsome........................................................just like seeing something beautifull you cant help but love it :)

"Today, A kid in my grade won an award for perfect attendance. He was absent. MLIA."

it finaly happened

I snapped,

i was tired, angry, stressed,my fringe wasnt working, anoyyed becuase i could figure out the homework and sick :(

so I snapped

my brother aked why i was wearing a beanie (becuase my hair wasnt working and it has holding it in the right place) and he took it off. i dont know why that did it and i dont know why i cried. but i did.

I ran off crying at put my beanie back on but i would stop crying :(

i just couldnt help it

and the one thing that cheered me up was thinking "well now i know how to fake cry." and i stopped crying. i wanted to see my friends but not a school. i want to see my class mates but not in class and i want to be in my loving home but i dont want to be in this home.

So i realised that i cant have that becuase if there was no school we wouldnt be able to talk propaly and i would see my friends a lot. if i didnt have this home i wouldnt have my family which i love (no matter how annoying a parent or brothe might be.)

So i will stay here and now im happy becuase just writting this down makes me feel good and knowing that at the same time im telling the people who read this that i love them no matter what!!!!!!! :)

p.s- i guess the crying was from be happy to much............all well im ahppy again now :)

happy, nice and a computer that pisses me off

I feel like being really nice to everyone today and it makes me feel happy. plus i dont feel like tripping anyone(which is wierd for me) but i just feel like being nice and happy :)

all though my computer is pissing me off becuase it wont let me put pics on my post but all well life goes on :)

buddha

i am buddha and i thought i couldnt be becuase i wasnt a vegetarien but then i realised that it doesnt matter i can still be buddha becuase i am very middle way.
My sign is libra which means balacne and everthing i do is balenced i just cant help it.
so i am buddha and u cant stop me it's just ment to be..................(haha that ryhmes)

i so want this phobia

Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of school

friends

friends are there for you. well if you have the right ones they will be. They dont judge you and they will almost do anything for you. So trust them, love them back and never forget them even if they are super wierd.

teachers

teacher............not much to say but there boring and they usally suck. oh and they can sometimes be very srict. I mean some teachers can be nice but they come along so rearly that most teacher end up being the same (well thats what happens in my head).
something else is that life should not intervine with school. Im mean life is life and school is school. So now i am just rambling on so yeah.

nothings as awesome as shane dawson

i know im obsessed but who wouldnt be obseesed with someone that can make you smile on a sad day and make you laugh way more than a normal person should and alos underneath that be sensitve and really nice and really really hot :p. but yeah so thats why im obsessed.

shane dawson *sighs*

lalalalalalala

im so happy lol

done homework, parents out, brothers out for once so only one thing to do


be bored!
but happy!!!!




p.s-more post coming when i go on blogger on my laptop

dumb rules in australia

• Children may not purchase cigarettes, but they may smoke them.
• You may never leave your car keys in an unattended vehicle.
• It is illegal to wear hot pink pants after midday Sunday.
• It is illegal to roam the streets wearing black clothes, felt shoes and black shoe polish on your face as these items are the tools of a cat burgular.

WTF!!!!!!!!!

well i sure we have a lot of work to do now :)

google rules

this came up when i sheaced for chuck noris on google

Google won't search for Chuck Norris because it knows you don't find Chuck Norris, he finds you.

No standard web pages containing all your search terms were found.
Your search - Chuck Norris - did not match any documents.

Suggestions:
Run, before he finds you
Try a different person

Today, my 6 year old son came home from school and showed me a project that he did in school. The project was to make up their dream job for when they are grown up. Apparently he wants to have a 'blow job' where he gets to blow up things all day long. I wonder how hard it was for his teacher to keep a straight face throughout his presentation. MLIA

happy happy happy and cute

i am very happy and now i cant stop being happy.

Even if i think of something really sad i forget it allmost intently and become happy again.

love thy friends like you love thy self i dunno im sort of just rambling on about random stuff but i am happy so hahahahahaha

pirate, ninja and ghosts really can beat the world...............but only if there together :)

kids inside

ghost, pirate and ninga are all even fights becuase you are not the creater. you may have called me a pirate but i am the one who wanted to be it. So i may lose in your world but your world is not the real world and in the real world we are all even becuase we love each other :)

so i am pirate, thy ghost and thy ninga and we all win together!!!!!

we are such kids but i guess thats what make us awesome!!!!!!!

things that make my day

Today, I started choking on a Life Saver. Instead of being scared I just started laughing at the irony. MLIA
Today, it was really cold. While shivering at my school's lockers with my friends, I said, "They should put a heater in the sky." My friend politely pointed out to me that this would be the sun. MLIA
Today, during the 6 o'clock morning news, one of the reporters cheerily said to sit back, eat a banana, and a bowl of Special K. Not only had I just finished a bowl of Special K, but I was in the act of peeling a banana. I am now very suspicious of my local news team. MLIA.
While packing in preparation for a move, I found an old box from when we moved last time. Inside it, above everything else, was a $20 bill taped to the top of something, and a note in my handwriting - "Twenty bucks says you forget all about me until you move again." I just lost a bet to myself from five years ago. MLIA
Today, I saw a commercial for the Snuggie. I thought it was stupid idea but I couldn't change the channel because I was under a blanket and I didn't want my arms to get cold. MLIAToday, I was thinking about the expression 'revenge is a dish best served cold'. Then I considered that 'revenge is sweet'. I've come to the conclusion that revenge is ice cream. MLIA
Today, I was trying to telepathically communicate with my teacher in class. He didnt look at me the whole time I was calling out 'sir' loudly in my head, then I thought I'd lie and tell him I slept with his wife, he glanced at me from the corner of his eye. I know he can hear me. MLIA
Today, my boyfriend asked me what I was thinking. I told him I was considering healthcare plans. In reality, I was wondering what it would be like to be an octopus. It would be awesome. MLIA.
Today, my mom called me a "son of a bitch". I laughed at the irony. She didn't get it. MLIAToday, a friend and I had a discussion about dinosaurs and came to the conclusion that t-rexs were only angry and aggressive because their arms were too short to hug one another. MLIA.
Today, I noticed that there was a warning on my bag of marshmallows: "choke hazard: eat only one at a time." Feeling rebellious, I stuffed two marshmallows into my mouth at once. I nearly choked. MLIA.
Today, our guest speaker at school gave out pens that "never write lies". I decided to test it out and wrote "2+2=". As I was writing "5", the pen stopped working. MLIA
Today, I read an FML about a someone who was filmed, drunk, climbing into her wardrobe screaming "I wanna go to Narnia!" I've done that sober. I don't see a problem. Who doesn't wanna go to Narnia? MLIA.
Today I joined a new website and used the word "penis" as my password. The website said my password was too short. MLIA

sorry im writting a lot of post :)

history it is boring most of the time but it can be interesting.

I was just reading a blog of my friends about history and how we will become history.

That made me think................what will it be like in the next 200 years.

will earth even still be here
will humans still be here
nobody knows and i guess thats the beauty of it




ps-pirate beat ninga lol

this made me smile :)

Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

moments to make you smile

Thy is your, thee is you and thou is you which I really don’t think makes any sense at all…meh

I am I and thee are thou………..see confusing :)

Sorry, something I just wanted to do to try and make u laugh or smile. If it didn’t make you laugh fair enough it wasn’t a good joke :). if it made u smile I’m glad I made you smile today. If you didn’t smile or laugh and thought it was weird fair enough but you don’t have my humor.and finally if you got it after five minutes………………..lol u just had a Miranda moment :).

Hope u enjoyed my little joke and have a wonderful day!

pirates beat ningas

i am now pirate and thy ninga, i am pirate and thy hearts been taken by a simple foke named nevile longbottom.
I love thee shane dawson as so my background says.
i am no hammok girl for happyer now i am.
i am pirate and thy a ninga!

is someone makes me sad today i am going to chris brown and bitch and dont worry i fucking will

im still happy and i am amzed it has lasted that long but everything bad that happens only makes me sad for like 10 mins at most then its gone and im happy again so i will be happy for a while.



last time this happened I was happy for so long i forgot what it was like to angry.



so i hope this lastes as long as before and i really hope it doesnt end in a while becuase i need this and i am also loving it.



I have also been feeling really balanced latly and i dont know why. I just feel like whatever happens is meant to happen so if someone broke up with me now (if i had a boyfriend lol) I wouldnt mind becuase i guess it was meant to happen :)

ending can be happy

I am happy and i think it is beasuse i am seeing my friends again. but i know it wont last for long.................so i guess it shows that you have to not wate the time you have becuase you never know when it is going to end!!!

to anyone who is listening....................I dont like campbell anymore well i dont think i do so...........

i think im free again from liking someone then feeling guilty becuase their one of your best friends and feeling bad becuase well when you like someone you usally feel bad ok......anyway i have to stop saying anyway and i think im free from that! :)

I do love happy endings

time really doesnt go by so quickly

it was sunny and if it was sunny today my plan would work and i would be happy and i wouldnt just sit around the computer all day and do noting.......................................why did it have to start raining and make me sad and why did i have to spend most of the day insde when it was sunny.

life is sooooo unfair and it felt like i just realised that i really am wasting my life away on the computer, well i sort of new that but the one day i wanted to be alone my brohters home. the one day i wanted to go take ralph for a long walk outside and go to glenferrie, buy a coke and then find a post office to post something it starts raining.

today im am going to sit on the computer finding anyway to get away from this world so i dont have to feel major dissapiontment everytime i look outside. If it was sunny i would have done all those things above and would have been happy and full of energy but for know i am going to curl up into a little ball and let time pass by.

are we really us (you will get the pic at the end)

i mean seriously are we really us.

I know im not competly me.

Its not that i dont want to be me but i think that to be you, you take little bits of the people we love and put them together in our own way.

And that makes us.

I get reading a lot from my friend the bookworm (aka. georgia), I get daydreaming from J.D in scrubs and other stuff from other people or thing i love.

I noticed this when i started talking like shane dawson. I think its becuase i love his videos and his hair.

So i think that you have a little part of your friends, family and people you think are totaly hot (shane dawson) and put them together but there is still things that you do that are you and thats the thing that makes you different.

But mabye thats just me..............................

love and hate...............no biggy

here is a quote i made up:

don't worry about the stuff you hate or the stuff you love becuase the stuff you hate might go away but the stuff you love will never actually leave.


Sorry it so corny
and the picture i just loved cause i think baby smiles are so cute :P

i love making videos

I do really love making videos though. I love how instead of writing about how much i love him and how cute he can be, I can show all his cute moments on camera and i cant write them down.

I love the way i can show everyone the lunch times with my friends and how we always make songs and laugh till our stomachs are sore and that we do that every lunch.

I love filming i always have.
So i say don't let things tie you up becuase no matter how long the road looks there is always an end.

p.s- do u like the pic cause i took it myself

kick in the but

i hate liking Cam, yes i said it i like Campbell.
but i hate it and i never wanted it. I thought i got over him but every time i see him i like him again for a day then it goes away again.
i never asked to like him it just happened and i want it to un-happen.

god iu really hate how life can just turn around and kick you in the but!

what people i hate do

You say we only think of ourselves. When you say me, me, me. You don’t like change. You give me bad grades. You hate my work. Everything you do has to be better. You make me feel bad. You push and punch, you kick and laugh and push me to the edge. I hate the way you laugh at things i said or did. I hate the way you be a hypocrite. Hypocrite is all you are and you never will give me a chance. You push me away when I’m trying to be near you. You make me do all the work. You think if we are
going to be friends i have to try when you just sit and watch. I’m not sad just tired of being here. Just leave me alone. You people don’t know when to stop. I want to give you a taste of something you did to me. Although i don’t want to hurt you. Why do you make me follow? I want to be myself and have the friends that love me. Why you are even still near me blows my mind away. You know i hate your guts. I am no dog or animal that loves you because I will always be me so don’t try and change me. I am me and I know that is the one thing that will never change in this world no matter how hard you try.

just shrug it off

i started making videos on youtube and there better than the blog becuase u can show how u feel and u cant allways write stuff down but u shure can say it!

i love my new phone 2 its where i make all the videos and i got my own channel!!

there is one thing i cant get out of my head and i thinks it makes everything better as corny as it is..............."it could allways get worse!"

and i know people hate it and hate me saying it but it is true and i can so deal with it people cause i ant harmed by u anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

free but have more to say!!

I am free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i dont care anymore about what anyone thinks of me im me and they will have to deal with it.

Something just clicked and now i feel free, it might of had something to do with being able to climb out my window lol.

I am happy most of the time expet when i have short bursts of anger or sadness.

I get happy when other people are happy or sad when they are sad but i am still mainly happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. My dad put the fly screen back on the window but i took it off again so this definitly makes me free and im loving it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i made it i broke the fly screen and went on the roof it was hard but fun and im gonna keep it a secret till my parents realize its broken.

Now i really do feel like a bird and i can fly away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

fly screens

tried getting to the roof the fly screen wont budge.

BLOODY FLY SCREEN!!!!!!!

thinking bout getting off the computer

i want to get up and go but i also want to lie on my bed and relax.
right now i want to get up go upstairs go out my window and sit on the roof and think............and i just might.

what happens

and then
Something happens when we become year 8's. I myself have no idea what it is but when your in year 7 your a follower and when your in year 8 your a leader...................

seasons

Summer- the good days in life, the sunny pictures, the jumping in pools and the to hot days that leave you liying on the floor panting.
Autumn- the warning of winter and the trees losing there leaves, the mess and annoyance of winter coming.
Winter- the cold, sad days that leave you sick and tired. The boringness of the cold and the anoyingness of rugging up.
Sping- The wating has gone and winter is over now the causaul summer days annoy you as you sit waiting for summer to come back.
Summer- its back and tiime to go outside and live life again.

secrets

Secrets can come in many sizes big, small, long, short but their there and no one can ..... that.
Secrets are secrets, you can keep them or give them away but they will always have been secrets.
Secrets can rip groups apart from the inside but if you say them at the right moment at the right time........well then they might just bring you closer.
Secrets don't make sense and if you really think about it you can't find a good reason for them to be secrets.
They can be happy, sad, funny, mean, selfish, naughty, nice, boring or interesting.
They can make people happy, sad, angry, hypo, mean, tight, kind or even make people think.
but secrets can never be explained and can never be unlocked but when you go to bed a night they will all ways be there at the back of your mind wanting to get out.

Life doesn't make sense either.
why do we have life, why do we need to enjoy life and why do we want to know about life.
Life can be happy, comic or depressed but everyone who has life is some how the same............ so everybody laughs and cry's and like a good song says "everybody hurts, sometimes."


Well secrets, life and many other things will probably all ways be a mystery's.

i dont know what happened all i know is that i suddenly think a completly different way
well not completly i have all ways sort of thought like that but now i cant stop thinking like that.

I now think that everyone is going to die everyone might get sick and most people you know will proably die of some disease.

If someone dies or starts hating you well i guess thats what its meant to be like

life will end and the world will sometime explode

and i allways new that but know i just dont really care, i will when it happens but i think i will get over it quicker than other people becuase, well i do care but i just sort of took a step back and realised everyone will die so you cant help it if it happens becuase its meant to be.

i never really belived in destany but i guess someone getting hurt is their destany.

confused

i feel bad..... I just wanted to be friends

but people are mean and un sensitve and dont think about other people,

why cant they just accept everyone.

now i want her to go so she has more friends cause i love her,but i love her to much to let go

and they sometimes hurt her so i dont know what to do

im so confused!