to anyone who is listening....................I dont like campbell anymore well i dont think i do so...........

i think im free again from liking someone then feeling guilty becuase their one of your best friends and feeling bad becuase well when you like someone you usally feel bad ok......anyway i have to stop saying anyway and i think im free from that! :)

I do love happy endings

time really doesnt go by so quickly

it was sunny and if it was sunny today my plan would work and i would be happy and i wouldnt just sit around the computer all day and do noting.......................................why did it have to start raining and make me sad and why did i have to spend most of the day insde when it was sunny.

life is sooooo unfair and it felt like i just realised that i really am wasting my life away on the computer, well i sort of new that but the one day i wanted to be alone my brohters home. the one day i wanted to go take ralph for a long walk outside and go to glenferrie, buy a coke and then find a post office to post something it starts raining.

today im am going to sit on the computer finding anyway to get away from this world so i dont have to feel major dissapiontment everytime i look outside. If it was sunny i would have done all those things above and would have been happy and full of energy but for know i am going to curl up into a little ball and let time pass by.

are we really us (you will get the pic at the end)

i mean seriously are we really us.

I know im not competly me.

Its not that i dont want to be me but i think that to be you, you take little bits of the people we love and put them together in our own way.

And that makes us.

I get reading a lot from my friend the bookworm (aka. georgia), I get daydreaming from J.D in scrubs and other stuff from other people or thing i love.

I noticed this when i started talking like shane dawson. I think its becuase i love his videos and his hair.

So i think that you have a little part of your friends, family and people you think are totaly hot (shane dawson) and put them together but there is still things that you do that are you and thats the thing that makes you different.

But mabye thats just me..............................

love and hate...............no biggy

here is a quote i made up:

don't worry about the stuff you hate or the stuff you love becuase the stuff you hate might go away but the stuff you love will never actually leave.


Sorry it so corny
and the picture i just loved cause i think baby smiles are so cute :P

i love making videos

I do really love making videos though. I love how instead of writing about how much i love him and how cute he can be, I can show all his cute moments on camera and i cant write them down.

I love the way i can show everyone the lunch times with my friends and how we always make songs and laugh till our stomachs are sore and that we do that every lunch.

I love filming i always have.
So i say don't let things tie you up becuase no matter how long the road looks there is always an end.

p.s- do u like the pic cause i took it myself

kick in the but

i hate liking Cam, yes i said it i like Campbell.
but i hate it and i never wanted it. I thought i got over him but every time i see him i like him again for a day then it goes away again.
i never asked to like him it just happened and i want it to un-happen.

god iu really hate how life can just turn around and kick you in the but!

what people i hate do

You say we only think of ourselves. When you say me, me, me. You don’t like change. You give me bad grades. You hate my work. Everything you do has to be better. You make me feel bad. You push and punch, you kick and laugh and push me to the edge. I hate the way you laugh at things i said or did. I hate the way you be a hypocrite. Hypocrite is all you are and you never will give me a chance. You push me away when I’m trying to be near you. You make me do all the work. You think if we are
going to be friends i have to try when you just sit and watch. I’m not sad just tired of being here. Just leave me alone. You people don’t know when to stop. I want to give you a taste of something you did to me. Although i don’t want to hurt you. Why do you make me follow? I want to be myself and have the friends that love me. Why you are even still near me blows my mind away. You know i hate your guts. I am no dog or animal that loves you because I will always be me so don’t try and change me. I am me and I know that is the one thing that will never change in this world no matter how hard you try.

just shrug it off

i started making videos on youtube and there better than the blog becuase u can show how u feel and u cant allways write stuff down but u shure can say it!

i love my new phone 2 its where i make all the videos and i got my own channel!!

there is one thing i cant get out of my head and i thinks it makes everything better as corny as it is..............."it could allways get worse!"

and i know people hate it and hate me saying it but it is true and i can so deal with it people cause i ant harmed by u anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

free but have more to say!!

I am free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i dont care anymore about what anyone thinks of me im me and they will have to deal with it.

Something just clicked and now i feel free, it might of had something to do with being able to climb out my window lol.

I am happy most of the time expet when i have short bursts of anger or sadness.

I get happy when other people are happy or sad when they are sad but i am still mainly happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. My dad put the fly screen back on the window but i took it off again so this definitly makes me free and im loving it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i made it i broke the fly screen and went on the roof it was hard but fun and im gonna keep it a secret till my parents realize its broken.

Now i really do feel like a bird and i can fly away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

fly screens

tried getting to the roof the fly screen wont budge.

BLOODY FLY SCREEN!!!!!!!

thinking bout getting off the computer

i want to get up and go but i also want to lie on my bed and relax.
right now i want to get up go upstairs go out my window and sit on the roof and think............and i just might.

what happens

and then
Something happens when we become year 8's. I myself have no idea what it is but when your in year 7 your a follower and when your in year 8 your a leader...................

seasons

Summer- the good days in life, the sunny pictures, the jumping in pools and the to hot days that leave you liying on the floor panting.
Autumn- the warning of winter and the trees losing there leaves, the mess and annoyance of winter coming.
Winter- the cold, sad days that leave you sick and tired. The boringness of the cold and the anoyingness of rugging up.
Sping- The wating has gone and winter is over now the causaul summer days annoy you as you sit waiting for summer to come back.
Summer- its back and tiime to go outside and live life again.

secrets

Secrets can come in many sizes big, small, long, short but their there and no one can ..... that.
Secrets are secrets, you can keep them or give them away but they will always have been secrets.
Secrets can rip groups apart from the inside but if you say them at the right moment at the right time........well then they might just bring you closer.
Secrets don't make sense and if you really think about it you can't find a good reason for them to be secrets.
They can be happy, sad, funny, mean, selfish, naughty, nice, boring or interesting.
They can make people happy, sad, angry, hypo, mean, tight, kind or even make people think.
but secrets can never be explained and can never be unlocked but when you go to bed a night they will all ways be there at the back of your mind wanting to get out.

Life doesn't make sense either.
why do we have life, why do we need to enjoy life and why do we want to know about life.
Life can be happy, comic or depressed but everyone who has life is some how the same............ so everybody laughs and cry's and like a good song says "everybody hurts, sometimes."


Well secrets, life and many other things will probably all ways be a mystery's.