rain

today something is off

but i have no idea what

mabye its becuase its raining and that makes me feel sad but i really dont think so becuase on most rainy days i dont feel like i do today.

whats wrong with me???

4 am

after the last post i cant really write this but it was to much fun you cant not wright it.

we stayed up late,

we had midnight ice cream,

we talked about everything lol

and well we just plainly had fun

:D

im sorry

ok so i wrote a post,
im sorry
i said that,
but i have a few questions for you?

why were you angry in the first place???
how did i insult you???
did you know that id didnt mean it???
why couldnt you have told me about this ???

if i had known????
but i guess thats the thing that gets you into the fight,
if you had known, if you had told me
and i dont want to get into another fight.
so ill try to say it again..........im sorry
i didnt know i was insulting you, i didnt mean it?
i was trying to tell you what i was feeling so we could sort this out.

oh and i wrote these things in a post becuase i know if i said this to your face i would have cryed for, well i have no idea how long. same for this by the way. oh and becuse this way i can say it all in one big post and know one can interrupt me till im finished so you can see my piont before i get so sad or angry i have no idea what im saying, then i really offened you.

i know it hard to be happy 24/7, i wasnt saying you had to be.
i didnt say you said you promised to talk you didnt but i think you needed to becuase
well when i say change i mean that you have become angry or sad all the time.
and i meant change becuase i dont think i had ever seen this kind of angry
and you didnt seem angry
look ok im sorry and im sorry if this offends you again im just trying to make sense of all of this and try and figure out what i want to say at the same time.

i never want to ever really hurt you and thats why whenever i acidently hit you hard i go in a coner and try to not think about it becuase if i do i will end up crying in front of everyone.

p.s know one can ever no someone to their full extient becuase some thing you just cant explain..........................like i guess this post.



i love you and i never want to lose you so when i say im sorry i meant it

your both sensitive

you need to talk

not just expect one of the other to start it then both not

and not at each others party

at laurens you can ruin that one :)

but really

you guys are best friends

why the sudden hate

you both think that when one of you does something its something else

but it not

i know you both so well

so both of you just snap out of it

you love each other

and i dont want you guys not being friends for the holidays

so just let me explain

you guys need to be more calm towards each other

and if this offends one of you

im sorry

and i mean it

hey look what an apoligie has done

by the way, one of you has changed but little did you now she changed back

and the other one, she doesnt hate you, she just wants you back and you have come back

oh and im sorry if this is mean, i just want you guys to be friends again.

i wanna beat the world again!!!!!!

totaly lies, and criket person, come on

ive been thinking and well
i will not miss our class
i will miss my friends
and the people that have met the real me (i know its a bit crazy but it sure as hell is me)
and i will miss being in year 8
and in the same class