im sorry

ok so i wrote a post,
im sorry
i said that,
but i have a few questions for you?

why were you angry in the first place???
how did i insult you???
did you know that id didnt mean it???
why couldnt you have told me about this ???

if i had known????
but i guess thats the thing that gets you into the fight,
if you had known, if you had told me
and i dont want to get into another fight.
so ill try to say it again..........im sorry
i didnt know i was insulting you, i didnt mean it?
i was trying to tell you what i was feeling so we could sort this out.

oh and i wrote these things in a post becuase i know if i said this to your face i would have cryed for, well i have no idea how long. same for this by the way. oh and becuse this way i can say it all in one big post and know one can interrupt me till im finished so you can see my piont before i get so sad or angry i have no idea what im saying, then i really offened you.

i know it hard to be happy 24/7, i wasnt saying you had to be.
i didnt say you said you promised to talk you didnt but i think you needed to becuase
well when i say change i mean that you have become angry or sad all the time.
and i meant change becuase i dont think i had ever seen this kind of angry
and you didnt seem angry
look ok im sorry and im sorry if this offends you again im just trying to make sense of all of this and try and figure out what i want to say at the same time.

i never want to ever really hurt you and thats why whenever i acidently hit you hard i go in a coner and try to not think about it becuase if i do i will end up crying in front of everyone.

p.s know one can ever no someone to their full extient becuase some thing you just cant explain..........................like i guess this post.



i love you and i never want to lose you so when i say im sorry i meant it