it finaly happened

I snapped,

i was tired, angry, stressed,my fringe wasnt working, anoyyed becuase i could figure out the homework and sick :(

so I snapped

my brother aked why i was wearing a beanie (becuase my hair wasnt working and it has holding it in the right place) and he took it off. i dont know why that did it and i dont know why i cried. but i did.

I ran off crying at put my beanie back on but i would stop crying :(

i just couldnt help it

and the one thing that cheered me up was thinking "well now i know how to fake cry." and i stopped crying. i wanted to see my friends but not a school. i want to see my class mates but not in class and i want to be in my loving home but i dont want to be in this home.

So i realised that i cant have that becuase if there was no school we wouldnt be able to talk propaly and i would see my friends a lot. if i didnt have this home i wouldnt have my family which i love (no matter how annoying a parent or brothe might be.)

So i will stay here and now im happy becuase just writting this down makes me feel good and knowing that at the same time im telling the people who read this that i love them no matter what!!!!!!! :)

p.s- i guess the crying was from be happy to much............all well im ahppy again now :)